Sunday, October 18, 2009

Adventures in Baking


With enough butter, anything is good. -Julia Child

I found that quote the other day, and I'm toying with putting it up on some shelves I have over my kitchen table. It just makes me laugh.

But, onto the main idea of this post:

I made buttercream icing this afternoon.

From scratch.

And I'll admit it, I'm pretty darn proud of myself. I definitely understood the need for an apron after totally covering myself in powdered sugar. And, I didn't use the clear vanilla that the recipe called for because I live in the boonies, and I couldn't find it anywhere. But, it tasted like buttercream, and it looks like buttercream to me, so hopefully it'll pass. Now, we'll just have to see how my first cake decorating class goes this week...

I have to say that I am so ridiculously excited about this class that I could just explode. I have wanted to learn how to decorate with all those fantastic tips for so long. Secretly, I wish I could open up some great bakery and do nothing but create yummyness with butter and sugar and flour all day long. Oh, and chocolate. That would be quite important, too.

Unfortunately, I'm not exactly the kind of baker that can just come up with amazing things on her own. So, my own shop with exquisite and unique creations probably won't happen anytime soon. I need to steal the genius of others that are more talented than I. But, there are so many wonderful things out there to make!

That's why combined with starting my class and anticipating this coming in the mail, my life will be happy and sugar-filled this week. I might just have to learn how to put pictures up here so that I can show you my creations once I know what I'm doing.

Now, I just need more people to bake for so that Mike and I don't eat it all. Any volunteers?

P.S. Sorry for the long lapse in posting (Lauren and Mike, you're the only ones who read this, so sorry to you specifically). I'll try to be better from now on. :)

Friday, September 11, 2009

Falling for You

I've written two semi-serious posts, so I think it's time for a total meaningless one. Let's pretend this post's subtitle is "An Ode to Fall."

Now, let's just get this out of the way. There are those naysayers out there (coughMichellecough) who will cynically tell me that fall only leads to winter, which is therefore depressing. But, I can't help it, I love fall.

You see, I associate fall with the start of something new rather than the beginning of the end. Maybe it's all those years in school. I don't know for sure. I do know, however, that I get butterflies and this gurgly (pretend it's a word, okay?) feeling in my stomach. I just get excited.

I love the colors of fall, especially now that we live in the mountains where I really get to experience it. The rich reds, the warm oranges, and the comforting golds make me giddy--yes, giddy--with delight. I can't wait to dig out my fall decorations, go buy pumpkins and mums (which I'm doing TOMORROW!), and deck out my little abode in autumnal happiness.

I love the smells of fall. You know what I mean, right? A mix of changing leaves and shifting winds that just plain old smells like fall. I suddenly feel like I can light my candles again, and enjoy my new one that's called "Autumn Wreath" (courtesy of a great mother-in-law who understands the integral need of all things Yankee Candle).

And, because, let's be honest, I think with my stomach, I also love the tastes of fall. Really, all I need to say is Pumpkin Spice Latte and the world is a better place. If I had more people to bake for besides my Handsome Husband and myself, I would currently be creating a never-ending mound of breads, pies, and other things that involve lots of butter and pumpkin.

See, now you want to come and visit me so I will bake for you. And you can because I plan on absolutely zero traveling the month of October.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Tripping and Stumbling

I tend to break things. Glasses, dishes, cell phones, myself. I'm just not always the most coordinated person in the world. Okay, I'm hardly ever coordinated or graceful. I've dropped spaghetti on my mom's new white carpet. I've broken 3 different cell phones in less than a year. In fact, while in college I managed to fall down four separate flights of stairs at one point or another. That doesn't even count all the times I fell up the stairs.

I don't always feel so coordinated when it comes to my spiritual life, either. I stumble. A lot (both literally and figuratively). It's easy to feel useless, unnoticed, and unloved. I find myself questioning how God could possibly want me when I mess up so often. And yet, I believe in a God who loves me and chooses to use me even in all of that brokenness.

Isn't the Bible full of such examples of broken people used to glorify God? Moses was a terrible public speaker, and yet God used him to deliver His people. King David made some awful decisions, and yet he was a man after God's heart. Peter went so far as to deny Jesus three times, and yet Jesus called him the rock on which he would build the church. I don't know about you, but it makes me feel better to know that those Biblical giants messed up big time, too.

It's been a long time since my last post because I've been out of town for two weddings (more posts to come on all of that), and then, this week, my papaw passed away. So, today I find myself back in Oklahoma for his memorial service. You might be asking, "How does this tie into brokenness?" Well, my papaw lived the last few years of his life with Alzheimer's. His mind steadily became more and more broken as the disease robbed him of his memory. When my family would discuss his illness, we would question why God would allow him to remain alive as his mind declined. He was not the same vivacious man that we had always known.

Then, my parents and sisters sat by my papaw during his last hours. They saw workers from the nursing home pouring in to say goodbye to a man who had never been harsh to them; who was always eager to read the Bible out loud or sing a hymn. He called everyone "Darlin" and always said, "Thank you." As my sister pointed out to all of us, Alzheimer's could not take away my papaw's love of Christ. Even though his mind was broken and he wasn't the wisecracking grandpa we knew anymore, he still radiated the Holy Spirit. He still brought glory to God even as his mind and body were failing him.

Today, we remember my papaw's life and what he brought to us while he was here on earth. But, I know that along with the jokes and sayings that my papaw left me with, he also passed on a legacy of faith that proved that even when all hope is gone--when we are at our most broken--God still uses us.

Thanks, Papaw, for that lesson.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

My Peter Pan Syndrome

Do you remember what you wanted to be when you were a kid? If you were anything like me, those aspirations ranged from ballerina to cheerleader to actress to at-home artist (that's the technical term I used for it). I've also had fleeting dreams of being a writer, architect, interior designer, and teacher (the one I ended up getting a degree in).

Recently, my brother-in-law pointed me in the direction of a book called Cure for the Common Life by Max Lucado. Lucado asks that you start your journey of "self-discovery" (okay, that's cheesy, but work with me, okay?) by delving into your childhood dreams. It has definitely started me down a path of inward inspection that is difficult, mainly because I've discovered that I remember very little about being a kid. Seriously, when did that happen? It's kind of hard for me to recall the things that got me excited.

As I mentioned, my bachelor's degree is in teaching. Yet, I find myself a year outside of college and with little desire to teach. In fact, I've been going through a bit of a "quarter-life crisis" as I try to wrangle my hopes and dreams into something managable, and into something that can hopefully become a source of purpose (and income). I suppose that internal struggle is one reason I started this blog and what inspired its name.

As I've thought about my big dreams for my future and those that I held in the past, I've found a few things in common:

1) I love beauty. At-home artist. Writer. English teacher. Interior designer. Even my wish to be a mom hints at my desire to make things beautiful. I think that's why I spend so much time and energy keeping my apartment neat and clean, as well as why I seek out books with rich character development and vivid descriptions. I long for beauty.
2) I want to make things better. That's where my desire to be a teacher comes in. I know that I want to live life with purpose. I'm just not sure what that will look like just yet.

What I'm learning (with the help of the kicks in the pants that Oswald Chambers' My Utmost for His Highest provides) is that God does not desire some ultimate, world-changing act on His behalf. Instead, He wants our daily moments along the journey. And dang, that is the absolute hardest lesson to learn. It is a lesson that I have to remind myself of almost every moment, and it hasn't fully saturated my thick skull. However, I do know that I want to walk it with God with the profession of "child of God" under my belt.

And since I will always be His child, I never truly have to grow up--which means I will always be Peter Pan.

Giving Up or Giving In

I'm an obsessive blog-reader. I'll admit it. Whether it's the popular home design blog, Young House Love, or fellow friends who blog, such as Lauren and Kate, I loyally check many of them each day. So, after much urging on the part of my husband (we'll call him Handsome Husband), I've decided to join the blog bandwagon. I'm admitting right now that I might not be very good at this. And, I can't promise regular posts or interesting topics, but I'm going to try.

I'll also give you the disclaimer up front: I am not redoing a house. I'm not going on any really great mission trip overseas. I definitely do not have cute kids (or ugly kids. Okay, I don't have any kids at all. Not even a cute puppy-just a few wilting houseplants.) I don't even think I'm that funny, but I figure that those of you who might read this love me enough to look at something I've written because you're bored. And you love me--remember?

So, let's get this party started...as soon as I think of something life-changing to write about.

(See Handsome Husband, I did it. Sometimes I listen to you.)